Narottama Das Thakuravirbhava mahotsava ki jay!! All glories to the appearance day celebration of Srila Narottama Das Thakur.

Out of the many songs that Narottama Das Thakurhas written, there is a collection of songs called ‘lalasamayi prarthana’. Following is the song from this collection:

gauranga’ balite habe pulaka-sharira

‘hari hari’ balite nayane ba’he nira

ara kabe nitai-candera karuna haibe

samsara-vasana mora kabe tuccha ha’be

vishaya chadiya kabe shuddha ha’be mana

kabe hama heraba shri vrindavana

rupa-raghunatha-pade haibe akuti

kabe hama bujhaba se jugala piriti

rupa-raghunatha-pade rahu mora asha

prarthana karaye sada narottama dasa

H H Lokanath swami Maharaja reads and comments upon the purport by His Divine Grace Srila Prabhupada:

“This is a song sung by Narottama dasa Thakura, a great devotee and Acharya in the Gaudiya Vaishnava Sampradaya, the disciplic succession coming down from Lord Caitanya. Narottama dasa Thakura has written many songs, which are recognized as authoritative by all the Vaishnavas. He has sung these songs in simple Bengali language, but the purport—the deep meaning of his songs—is very significant.”

In this song, he says, “Gauraga balite habe pulaka sarira” – when does one attain the perfection of chanting? – as soon as he chants the name of Gauranga, who inaugurated the sankirtana movement and at once there is shivering in his body. Of course it is not shivering due to cold, unlike us. (laughter). There was no external bodily cause for his shivering but Narottama das was shivering from within because his soul was trembling in ecstasy. This is not to be imitated. NAROTTAMA DAS THAKUR is asking “When will that fortunate day come that I shall simply sing Lord Caitanya’s name and there will be shivering on my body as soon as I chant Lord Gauranga’s name?”

Then he says, “As soon as I shall chant ‘Hari Hari,’ or ‘Hare Krishna,’ there will be pouring down of tears from my eyes.” hari hari balite nayane bahe nira. That is the sequence. First there is shivering and then there will be tears in the eyes.

Then NAROTTAMA DAS THAKUR is asking, “ara kabe nitai-candera karuna haibe”. We are all asking for the mercy of Lord Nityananda. Lord Nityananda is supposed to be the original spiritual master. So we have to approach Lord Gaurnaga through the mercy of Lord Nityananda. What is the symptom of the person who has achieved the mercy of Lord Nityananda? NAROTTAMA DAS THAKUR says that the symptom of one who has actually received the mercy of Lord Nityananda that he has no more material desire. “samsara-vasana mora kabe tuccha ha’be”. Tuccha word is derived from the word ‘spit’. Tuccha means as insignificant as spitting. Srila Prabhupada once literally spat while giving a class in Calcutta. He was speaking the verse from Srimad Bhagavatam, 7.9.45 “yan maithunadi-grihamedhi-sukham hi tuccham” and then he spat. (Sex life is compared to the rubbing of two hands to relieve an itch. Grihamedhis, so-called grihasthas who have no spiritual knowledge, think that this itching is the greatest platform of happiness, although actually it is a source of distress.)

‘Sansar vasana’ means desire for material enjoyment. NAROTTAMA DAS THAKUR wonders “When my desire for material enjoyment will be insignificant, non-important – tuccha.’’ Of course, as long as we have material bodies, there are so many material needs. We do not fulfill our needs in the spirit of enjoyment, but only to keep body and soul together.

NAROTTAMA DAS THAKUR says further, “rupa-raghunatha-pade haibe akuti”, “Beginning from Rupa Gosvami down to Raghunatha dasa Gosvami,” pade, “at their lotus feet. When I shall be eager to be attached at their lotus feet;” Akuti means eagerness. Srila Rupa gosvami is the father of devotional service. He has written a book called Bhakti Rasamrita Sindhu in which he has given directions on devotional service. These topics are also dealt with in Caitanya Caritamrita and other books. We have summary of those directions in our book, ‘teachings of Lord Caitanya’.

One has to learn the conjugal loving affairs of Radha and Krishna through the teachings of these six gosvamis. NAROTTAMA DAS THAKUR directs us not to try to understand the conjugal love affair of Radha and Krishna by our own efforts. We should try to understand this jugal priti under the direction of the gosvamis. As long as the mind is too much absorbed in materialistic thoughts, one cannot enter the kingdom of Vrindavana. But NAROTTAMA DAS THAKUR says, “vishaya chadiya kabe shuddha ha’be mana, kabe hama heraba shri vrindavana” “When my mind will be completely purified, uncontaminated from the material contamination, at that time it will be possible for me to see what Vrindavana is.” When my mind will be completely purified, free from material anxieties and desires, I will be able to understand Vrindavana. Then I will understand the conjugal love of Radha and Krishna and then my spiritual life will be successful.

So this song is a glimpse of the life and teachings of NAROTTAMA DAS THAKUR– It reveals the thoughts of Narottama, his emotions, feelings – in summary this song is a glimpse into the consciousness of NAROTTAMA DAS THAKUR. “gauranga balite kabe..” His heart is full of thoughts like this, always. They are revealed to us through his writing. Thus we could read his thoughts in black and white. Hearing them we get to know NAROTTAMA DAS THAKUR. Vaishnavera kriya mudra.. very difficult to understand. (CC Madhya 23.39 – Even the most learned man cannot understand the words, activities and symptoms of a person situated in love of Godhead.). Just by looking at a Vaishnava you may not understand him and his exhibition of activities like trembling of his body, rolling on the ground and other ashta-vikaras. His exhibition of these activities is not with a purpose that others will take note of it or take his photographs or video etc. He does not care for these things. The vaishnava may try to contain his emotions and yet some of his emotions may spill out. They come out in the form of the ashta vikaras. His soul is in contact with Supreme soul and what transpires through this communication or linking (yoga) with the Supreme (yoga) is the symptoms like trembling etc. The result is Hari Hari balite nayane babe nira. The love of Godhead overflowing within the heart of the vaishnava starts to drip out of the eyes in the form of tears. Tears of love of Godhead.

Thus through such songs, we get to know personalities like NAROTTAMA DAS THAKUR. I don’t know how much we really get to know because it is not easy to know a vaishnava. Just as it is difficult to know the Supreme Lord, it is equally difficult to know the devotee of the Lord. In fact, the more we understand a devotee of the Lord, the more we can understand Krishna. The more we understand devotee and our spiritual master, the more we understand Krishna. If we fully understand the devotee, we can also fully understand Krishna, as much as a human being could possibly know. Prabhupada says, even Krishna does not fully know Himself fully. He is ever changing, ever growing, and ever expanding. So how much could we, living entities can know Krishna? We can know Krishna to the degree we know pure devotees, to the degree we know vaishnavas, and to the degree we know our spiritual master. “Saksat Haritvena samasta sastrair..” Krishna is sanatana Hari, Gaura Hari, and the spiritual master is saksat Hari.

Knowing Krishna is also possible by knowing dham, being able to see dham, or being able to reside in the dham. In the words of Narrotatma das Thakur in this song, “vishaya chadiya kabe shuddha ha’be mana, kabe hama heraba shri vrindavana” . One who is able to see Vridavana or Mayapur as it is and is able to finally stay at these places; not just as visitor but resident of these places can really know Krishna. However in spite of being resident, if one’s mind goes to various other places from Mayapur to Calcutta, from Mayapur to London, then it is of no use. Hence, NAROTTAMA DAS THAKUR says, “When my mind will be freed from the contamination of this material enjoyment and I shall be purified, then it will be possible for me to see Vrindavana as it is.” When my mind will be suddha or pure, then my chanting of the holy names will also be pure – without offence. It will lead to shuddha bhakti, purified devotion.

Devotional service could be performed when my mind will pure (shuddha). This is all for us, and not for NAROTTAMA DAS THAKUR. This song are his instructions to us. You do not even have to refer to scriptures. His songs ARE scriptures!

Jagannatha Das Babaji used to say, spiritual realizations are very cheap nowadays. How much cheap? Oh, you just give 50 paise and buy the books of Narottama das Thakur’s songs. Just read and sing those songs and you will have realizations, you will get all clarity and you will be on your way back home, back to Godhead.

All the teachings of the Vedas are there in the songs of NAROTTAMA DAS THAKUR. He made it easier. Sanskrit is difficult to understand. You can just sing the songs that deal with all spiritual topics. He writes the songs dedicated to vaishnavas, to his spiritual master who is like his life and soul, to Gauanga, and to Radha and Krishna. These songs are famous everywhere – Orissa, Bengal.. and Prabhupada made them famous all over the world. In every town and village, they are known as Narottama dasa’s songs. Even if they may not know the Vedas or Upanisadas, they know Narottama dasa Thakura’s songs! Thus they have access to the Vedas, to the sastras when they read and sing songs of Narottama Das.

Everything is there in the songs. We get a glimpse of that knowledge depending upon how much surrendered and purified our minds and souls are. To the degree of purity of our minds, we can understand the songs of Narottama das. Even one song is enough to realize and go back to Krishna. Through his songs, we can understand his emotions, his devotional mood and deep purport of his songs can help us understand Radha Krishna.. “Radha-Krishna prana mor yugal kisor”

Srila Prabhupada gave us these gifts of songs of Narottama Das Thakur and Srila Bhaktivinod thakur. Now those songs are all over the planet. Soon the songs of NAROTTAMA DAS THAKUR in coming 5000 years will reach every town and village. Not just the mahamantra. Maha mantra will reach every town and village along with these songs. By then news will be out about NAROTTAMA DAS THAKUR and his songs. He was not just another devotee. Just to be a devotee is not a small thing. But he is not just another devotee or another associate but direct contemporary of Caitanya maharpabhu.

Narottama Das Thakur’s transcendental life:

He appeared in 1531, three years prior to disappearance of Sri Caitanya mahaprabhu on a full moon day. Today is that full moon day of Magh purnima. Caitanya mahaprabhu appeared on Phalgun purnima and Narottama Thakur appeared on Magh purnima which is one month prior to Gaura purnima. Once, Caitanya Mahaprabhu was in the kirtan and the kirtan stopped in the middle. CAITANYA MAHAPRABHU was in full ecstasy, His body trembling and tears gliding down His cheeks, He pointed to the village Kheturi gram and shouted “Narottama, Narottama..”. these were the words of CAITANYA MAHAPRABHU. All the devotees were wondering what happened. So they concluded that the Lord is indicating the appearance of some personality called Narottama. When CAITANYA MAHAPRABHU uttered the name of Narottama on His lips, it appeared very auspicious to the devotees. This also gives another glimpse of Narottama’s personality to see how CAITANYA MAHAPRABHU was attached to Narottama.

CAITANYA MAHAPRABHU entered the river called Padmavati (now in Bangla desh). The Lord filled Padmavati with love of Godhead. He instructed Padmavati, “I am leaving this prema with you. This is meant to be given to a very special person. Only to that person, you deliver this prema. She asked, How would I know who is that person? Mahaprabhu assured her, you would know. When this person enters your waters, it will flood, not because of rainy season or something but you will just rise and expand by the entrance of that person. So to that person you give this prema. That is what happened. When Narottama entered the waters of Padmavati, the river swelled and flooded and she remembered the instructions and gave the Krishna prema to Narottama. The Lord personally invested His preme into Padmavati’s waters until this personality of Narottama could come.

Narottama Das Thakurappeared as a prince, Krishnananda Datta. The king and his wife Naraynai gave birth to this very special child, very beautiful. We may end up thinking he might have been more beautiful than I am! (laughter). But no one had ever seen a beautiful child like Narottama. He had different features. His body was golden, his naval was deep. His eyes were wide like blooming lotus. Not a word jugglery but literally. His arms were long, reaching his knees. Certainly there was no match to his beauty. Upon his anna-prasan ceremony (feeding grains for the first time), he refused to accept. Soon the parents realized that those grains were not offered to the Lord. As they offered it to the Lord and brought him the maha-prasad, he gobbled it up. Even as a child he was teaching what to eat and what not to eat. He was sent to school. He was a brilliant student – shrutidhar – with a photographic memory. He soon became a very learned pandit in Sanskrit grammar and poetry.

He came in contact with Gauranga bhaktas and he started listening to Gauranga lilas. He got attracted to the personality of Sri Gauranga and Nityananda prabhu. He began chanting Their names and was very eager to find them and meet them. Lord Gauranga gave him darshan in dream in sankirtana as Pancha tattva. Soon Narottama lost all attraction for anything worldly. The family members became afraid about his leaving home and going away. So they decided to get him married. Surely, they thought, if he is married he will be bound. Bound by kama-pash – by the ropes of lust.

However Narottama was thinking of only going to Vrindavana. Family members kept guards to keep a strict watch on him so that he may not run away to Vrindavana. One day the king of Bengal sent a message to Narottama’s father. His father along with his brother left for Navadvipa to see the king. Narottama thought it as a good opportunity to run away and he did. He went to Vrindavana dham. On the way all the pilgrims were treating him nicely. However the guards searched for him and found him. Narottama fed them nice Prasad and told them Gaura katha so well that they forgot their job of grabbing him and bringing him home. They did not do that assignment and Narottama was able to head toward Mathura.

Then he reached Mathura. Upon reaching there, he heard the news! Rupa Gosvami and Sanatana gosvami were no more! He was so anxious. “Rupa Raghunatha pade hoibe akuti” he wrote. He was dreaming and thinking day and night, when that day would appear when I get to meet with Rupa and Raghunatha and so many other devotees in Vrindavana. We could imagine about Narottama’s reaction to that news. As if a thunderbolt had struck him. He lamented and fell unconsciousness. Knowing his thoughts, Rupa and Raghunatha and others appeared before him and gave him darshan even though they were not physically present.

Then he moved on to Vrindavana. In fact there was a prediction that Narottama would arrive on one of these days and Jiva Gosvami was expecting him. As he arrived, Jiva gosvami was one of first personalities to welcome Narottama and bring him to Radha Govinda temple. Then he saw some of remaining associates of Gauranga Mahaprabhu.

Narottama was searching for his guru. By this time, Narottama was studying under Srila Jiva gosvami. Jiva gosvami is Narottama’s shiksha guru, the instructing spiritual master. He was also serving Lokanath gosvami incognito. When Lokanath gosvami would take care of his daily bodily cleaning, Narottama would secretly go to that place and would clean that area thoroughly well. Days and months had passed like this. Finally Lokanath swami noticed it and found out who was secretly cleaning the area after he took care of his body? He came to know that it was none other than Narottama. Finally that connection was made. Narottama was initiated by Lokanath gosvami. Initially Lokanath gosvami had a vow of not making any single disciple of his own. However Narottama was insisting that he must have Lokanath gosvami as his spiritual master. They were both determined. Finally Lokanath gosvami gave up his vow. Narottama found his spiritual master.

Narottama wrote a song about the guru, “sri guru charan padma kevala bhakti sadma vando mui savadan mate”. (maharaja asks everyone to read the purport to this song). Srila Prabhupada selected this song for the daily ‘Guru pooja’. Every word, every line is so much important.

The lotus feet of our spiritual master are the only way by which we can attain pure devotional service. I bow to his lotus feet with great awe and reverence. By his grace one can cross the ocean of material suffering and obtain the mercy of Krishna.

My only wish is to have my consciousness purified by the words emanating from his lotus mouth. Attachment to his lotus feet is the perfection that fulfills all desires.

He opens my darkened eyes and fills my heart with transcendental knowledge. He is my Lord birth after birth. From him ecstatic prema emanates; by him ignorance is destroyed. The Vedic scriptures sing of his character.

ur spiritual master is the ocean of mercy, the friend of the poor, and the lord and master of the devotees. O master! Be merciful unto me. Give me the shade of your lotus feet. Your fame is spread all over the three worlds.

My spiritual master is the final destination for me. My destination is his lotus feet, uttama gati. When I reach the lotus feet of my spiritual master, I will also reach the lotus feet of Krishna. His lotus feet will bring me to the lotus feet of Krishna. By the mercy of my guru, I will achieve Krishna.

One day in Vrindavana, one Gopi like beautiful lady approached Narottama and told him, “your service in Vrindavana is to boil milk”. Narottama approached his guru and mentioned to him that such and such lady told me that my service in Vrindavana was to boil milk. He asked his guru what was the meaning of that. Lokanath gosvami said, first of all, that lady is not just an ordinary lady. It is Radha rani. She has revealed your eternal service in Vrindavana. Narottama is actually “chamak-manjari” from the spiritual world of Goloka Vrindavana and the particular service of this manjari is to boil milk!

One day he was in his transcendental service of boiling milk for Radha rani. He was in trance and the milk started overflowing due to his meditation. He tried to put off the fire to stop overflowing of milk and his fingers got burnt. Soon he was out of that trance or absorption in service. Suddenly he came back to his external consciousness. He tried to hide his burnt finger as he did not want others to know about this transcendental service. But the news spread and others came to know the position of Narottama.

He kept studying there under srila Jiva gosvami. By this time, Shyamananda and Srinivas acharya were also studying. Jiva gosvami was thinking that his disciples should go on Vraja mandal parikrama. Soon after he had this thought, he saw Raghav gosvami of Vrindavana. He stayed near Vrindavana in a cave, which is still there. Raghav gosvami was also preparing to go on this parikrama. Srila Jiva gosvami requested him to take along Shyamananda, Srinivas acharaya and Narottama das with him on Vraja mandal parikrama. There is a description of this parikrama in Bhakti Ratnakar. It describes of their experiences; every few steps they would roll on the ground, their bodies trembling and tears flowing from their eyes. They went around Vraja like this hearing about Radha and Krishna, different pastimes, and wetting all the dust of Vraja with their tears which they were constantly shedding.

Jiva gosvami instructed them to go on the preaching mission with the books. Narottama also visited Mayapur, Shantipur, Puri, and then his hometown. By this time his father was no more. The area was being ruled by another king, named Santosh. The king greeted Narottama with great reverence. This king had association of Narottama Das Thakurfor some time and he became initiated disciple of Narottama das along with so many other prominent persons. However Narottama was not born in brahmana family. The then existing smarta brahmanas took objection to this initiation process saying how could Narottama do this. They decided to visit him for a debate. When they came to his village, there were so many learned disciples of Narottama, having taken up various occupations of vaishya category. When Smarta brahmanas entered the town, they happened to meet with all these disciples of Narottama Das Thakurat in various market places. All the disciples were speaking in Sanskrit! They had dialogs with the brahmanas and defeated the brahmanas in debate. The smarta brahmanas thought that these are just the disciples of Narottama; they are doing all sorts of occupations, and yet they are so learned. Thus they realized the position of Narottama das and did not go to debate with him.

First ever Gaura Purnima festival: Then Narottama das decided to celebrate the first ever Gaura purnima festival with great pomp. There were many temple opening events, deity installation was going on. This was the first ever gaura purnima festival and devotees from all over arrived. The whole festival lifted everyone’s consciousness. The main objective of festival was to raise consciousness of the devotees who were present in the festival. Narottama led an ecstatic kirtan. Vaishnavas were playing musical instrument, touching each other’s feet, they all were singing in the kirtan with right raga and right bhava. How can we describe that kirtan? It was practically out of this world! Pancha tattva Personalities from another world descended and joined Narottama’s kirtan. Meeting of the two worlds took place without any barriers. Even though Caitanya mahaprabhu, Nityananda prabhu and other members of Pancha tattva had already left this mortal world, everyone assembled there saw all these personalities joining the kirtan. Jahnava mata, Nityananda prabhu’s consort also saw Him. Advaita acharaya’s sons saw Advaita acharya. Finally kirtan stopped and everyone was back in their normal worldly position. They felt the absence of all these divine persoanalities and they fell unconscious as if having lost their lives, not being able to see again Mahaprabhu and Nityananda prabhu.

Jahnava mataji cooked feast and served everyone in the Gaura purnima festival. She was the acharya of gaudiya vaishnavas. That time there were many differences of opinion, many interpretations in understanding of the vaishnava philosophy after Mahaprabhu’s disappearance. During this festival, Jahnava mata, through ista gosti, reconciled everything, establishing the final conclusions and thus unified all the vaishanvas present at this festival at Kheturi dham. Then they played holi, throwing colors with the Deities. In this way Narottama Das Thakurorganized the first ever, grand Gaura purnima festival.

Our Gaura purnima festival is beginning now, ending after one month on Gaura purnima day. So please meditate upon this first ever Gaura purnima festival and on the life of Srila Narottama das thakur!!

Hari bol!

Performing devotional service in Kartik on of this ceremonial function is called “araja vrata” or “Damodhar vrata”. Uraja vrata is observed in Kartika October-november especially in Vrindavan there is specific program for temple worship of Lord in His Damodhar form. Damodhar refers to Krishna being bound with the rope by His mother Yasoda. It’s said as Lord Damodhar is very dear to His devotees so the month known as Damodhar or Kartika is also very dear to them. The execution of devotional service during uraja vrata in month of kartika is especially recommended to be performed as Mathura Mandala- Braja mandal.
This system is still followed by many devotees they go Mathura or Vrindavan and stay there in month of Kartika especially to perform devotional service during this period. In Padma Purana its said the Lord may offer liberation or material happiness to a devotee but after some devotional service has been executed particularly in Mathura during month of Kartika the devotees wants only to remain only pure devotional service unto the Lord. The purport is Lord does not reward devotional service to ordinary persons who are not serious about it. But even such unserious persons perform devotional service according to regulative principles during kartika within the jurisdiction of Mathura in India are very easily awarded Lords personal service. Haribol………………..Guara Haribol, Haribol………………..Guara Haribol.
Padma purana ki ……………………………..jai.
Today is not month of kartika, today is last day of month of ashwin, ashwin and kartika put together is sharad ritu or autumn season. So its end of one month and today as month is ending its purnima its very special purnima -sharad purnima also known as “Rasa purnima” so we have different verse on the board from the 10th canto please repeat.
Sri – badarayanir uvaca
“bhagavan api ta ratrih saradotphulla-mallikah,
viksya rantum manas cakre, yoga-mayam upasrit ah” (S.B 10.29.1)
TRANSLATION : Sri Badaraya?i said: Sri K???a is the Supreme Personality of Godhead, full in all opulences, yet upon seeing those autumn nights scented with blossoming jasmine flowers, He turned His mind toward loving affairs. To fulfill His purposes He employed His internal potency.
PURPORT: As we begin the famous narration of Lord Krishna’s rasa dance, a dance of love with beautiful young girls, questions will inevitably arise in the minds of ordinary people regarding the propriety of God’s romantic dancing with many young girls in the middle of a full-moon autumn night. In his description of the Lord’s rasa dance in K??na, the Supreme Personality of Godhead, rila Prabhupada painstakingly explains the spiritual purity of these transcendental activities. Those advanced in the science of K??na — the great teachers, or acaryas — leave no doubt that Lord K?sna is full and satisfied in Himself, free of all material desire, which is, after all, a sense of incompleteness or lack.
Materialistic persons and impersonal philosophers stubbornly reject the bona fide explanation of sri krishna’s transcendental nature. There is no reason to deny the beautiful reality of an absolute person able to perform absolute romantic activities, of which our so-called romance is merely a shadow or perverted reflection. The irrational insistence that material activities cannot be a reflection of the perfect, spiritual activities performed by God reflects the unimaginative emotional disposition of those who oppose the reality of sri Krishna . This psychological disposition of the nondevotees, which leads them to fervently deny the very existence of the absolute person, unfortunately boils down to what may be succinctly described as envy, since the overwhelming majority of the impersonal critics eagerly pursue their own romantic affairs, which they consider quite real and even “spiritual.”
The actual supreme lover is Lord krishna. The Vedanta-sutra begins by declaring that the Absolute Truth is the source of everything, and even Western philosophy was born in a somewhat awkward attempt at finding the original One behind the apparent many of material existence. Conjugal love, one of the most intense and demanding aspects of human existence, can hardly have nothing at all to do with supreme reality.
In fact, the conjugal love experienced by human beings is a mere reflection of spiritual reality, in which the same love exists in an absolute, pristine state. Thus it is clearly stated here that when K?sna decided to enjoy the romantic atmosphere of autumn, “He resorted to His spiritual potency” (yoga-mayamupasrita?). The spiritual nature of Lord krishna’s conjugal affairs is a major theme in this section of the srimad-Bhagavatam.
A woman is attractive because of the sweet sound of her voice, her beauty and gentleness, her enchanting fragrance and tenderness, and also because of her cleverness and skill in music and dance. The most attractive ladies of all are the young gopis of V?ndavana, who are Lord krishna’s internal potency, and this chapter tells how He enjoyed their brilliant feminine qualities — even though, as srila Visvanatha Cakravart? ?hakura has mentioned, Lord K?sna was an eight-year-old boy when these events took place.
Ordinary people prefer God simply to be a witness of their romantic affairs. When a boy desires a girl or a girl desires a boy, sometimes they pray to God for their enjoyment. Such people are shocked and dismayed to find out that the Lord can enjoy His own loving affairs with His own transcendental senses. In truth, Sri K?sna is the original Cupid, and His exciting conjugal pastimes will be described in this section of the Bhagavatam.
When Lord K?sna descends to the earth, His spiritual body seems to take birth and grow as He displays His variegated pastimes. The Lord could hardly allow His boyhood to pass without exhibiting the supreme loving affairs between a young boy and young girls. Thus Visvanatha Cakravart? ?hakura quotes srila Rupa Gosvami as follows: kaisora? saphali-karoti kalayan kunje vihara? hari?. “Lord Hari perfects His youth by arranging loving pastimes in the groves of theVrndavana forest.”
So the topic is wonderful, Krishna is wonderful – Krishna’s pastimes are wonderful but our mind is not always wonderful so wonderful, so it becomes difficult to relish the wonderful pastimes of wonderful Lord Sri Krishna. No problem we have help of all acharyas we have help of king Parikshit also who is helping us understand Krishna’s most wonderful pastimes “sri-radhika-madhavayor apara madhurya lila guna rupa namanam prati-ksanasvadana-lolupasya vande guru sri caranaravindam” this is a topic of our previous acharyas the topic is Radha-Madhav, the topic is “radha-madhavayor apara madurya lia” madhurya –lila is also the topic at every step “prati-ksanasvadan-lolupasya’ they have become addicted in relishing these pastimes. ‘radha-krsna padaravinda-bhajanandena matttalikau” matta they are intoxicated, you cannot take them away from these topics of “radha-krsna bhajananda’ they are enjoying these pastimes.

Sri Krishna Caitanya Mahaprabhu appeared after long long time He appeared why did He appear? “kalau avatirnah kalau samarpiutum unnat ujawal rasam” Sri Krishna Caitanya Mahaprabhu appeared to deliver those pastimes what pastimes? ‘unnat ujawal rasam’ that rasa from that rasa come “rasa dance” from rasa come rasa. I give you some rasa while some one is serving you sabji what do you say? Hey prabhu rasa…rasa…juice…..mellow, so essence of the sabji is rasa. So there are 12 rasas and 5 principle rasas and of all those ‘unnat ujawal rasa” of all those 12 rasas unnat – the topmost rasa, which is ujawal, which is brilliant rasa, effulgent rasa is madhurya rasa. Sri Krishna Caitanya Mahaprabhu appeared to deliver that rasa to His followers of course. Madhavendra puri pada had already set the scene by relishing himself those pastimes and talking about those pastimes he was the first acharya in our line and that’s where we have different branch, we differ from Madhvacharya so sometime extend and what is the special dimension our sampradaya – our parampara has this ‘madhurya lila-guna-rupa-namnam”.
Sri Krishna Caitanya Mahaprabhu spend His time during the day He would chant “Hare krishna Hare krishna, Krishna Krishna Hare Hare, Hare Ram Hare Ram Ram Ram Hare Hare” this was for the public for everybody chanting of the Holy name ‘Hare Krishna” He did had Bhava of Radharani and the complexion of Radharani also relishing radha-krishna pastimes, radha –madhav pastimes, radha-shyamsundar pastimes.
So today is that day and than that night tonite Lord Krishna enjoyed those most wonderful pastime “bhagavan api ta ratrih” those nights, we thing it is only one night but here there is mention of many nights “ta ratrih” why is it? One night became as long as Brahmas night, so one was equal to many many nights. Hence the ratrih or the night has been mentioned as many nights. So “bhagavan api ta ratrih” so when that night was there evening time and it was “saradotphulla-mallikah” Lord is seeing around the blooming Jasmine buds, jasmine flowers, Prabhupada also mentions them as mallikah flower, they are mentioned as mallikah in Sanskrit text and they are also translated as jasmine flowers. So when Lord saw those flowers He was reminded of the autumn season “viksya rantum manas cakre” rantum manas cakre in His mind something happened in His mind. That evening when He saw those jasmine or malikah flowers that was evening time getting darker Lord immediately manas cakre within His mind or He made up His mind to “rantum” He wanted to enjoy oh! This night would be good night appropriate night for me to enjoy “rantum”. From ram comes Ram also, ram means to enjoy, form ram comes Raman reti, Radha raman raman also has ram.
So He had this thought Oh! Let me enjoy this is right night for me to enjoy “yoga-mayam upasritah” or as Lord desires to enjoy that night immediately Yogamaya got into action and Lord is thinking of meeting Gopis that night and enjoy the peak the best part of that night is going to be ‘rasa dancing” with Gopis. So this is a display by the influence of Yogamaya, arrangement of Yogamaya the Lord is be performing rasa dance. What makes us dance or the materialist dance or they become the dancing dolls or puppets in the hands of women, hands of lust and that is Mahamaya Prabhupada is describing, two kinds of Maya – Yogamaya “yoga-maya upasritah” . Chapter 29 to 32, five chapters Sukhdev Goswami will be describing these are all like “rasa dance” chapters and this is all display of Yogamaya, verses the Mahamaya of this material existence Srila Prabhupada is helping us to understand, he says Yogamaya because it is “bhagavan api ta ratrih” He is Bhagavan and His activities are Yogamaya activites or Yogamaya is in action. So there is relationship between this verse here wherein there is mention of two things one is ratrih –night mentioned here and “rantum” – enjoyment mentioned here, this has relationship with Lords statement to Gopis.
Krishna steals Gopis garments pastime at Chirghat “hemante prathame masi” (S.B 10.22.1) it was month of hemant after kartika, kartika is sharad ritu and when kartika ends new season, after autumn comes new season hemant ritu. So in that hemant ritu gopis perform special vrata and they worship Katyayani and their purpose was they wanted “nanda –gopa sutam devi patim me kuru te namah” (S.B 10.22.4). As Prabhupada is writing they are chanting mantra repeatedly oh! Katyayani give us Krishna as our husband, oh! Katyayani give us Krishna as our husband…………………..give Krishna as our husband, they were doing japa, chanting repeatedly “nanda –gopa sutam devi patim me kuru te namah” so that went for one month. And at the end of that month as Lord was pleased He arrived at the scene and they were bathing in Jamuna. He stole their garments climbed up the tree and said – come on come on and He has also briefly spoken to them and there He said towards the end of His dialogue with the gopis Krishna said “yatabala vrajam siddha mayema ramsyatha ksapah” (S.B 10. 22.27) OH! Now you may go, He had returned their clothes and He joked, He had little fun transcendental fun. Now you may go go now girls and return to Vraja your desire is fulfilled for in my company you will enjoy the coming nights after all the purpose of your vow to worship goddess Katyayani was to be with me to enjoy my company. So Lord said yes yes in future nights we will do that in future nights “ramsyatha ksapah” ksapah-nights. So many nights have passed gopis were thinking ok one night, two nights…..10 nights….30 nights….1 month….10 months from that time Lord Krishna said-coming nights we will get together I have understood what is your intension you had been praying to katyayani. She has blessed you I am here I am accepting you for my company I understand I can read your mind, so we will do this in coming nights so you may go now.
So as that was said some 10 months prior now today or tonight this evening Lord is thinking oh! I have promised gopis my company during the nights oh! That night could be this night, this night could be that night and hence here “bhagavan api ta ratrih”, ta ratrih- ta ratrih refers to some particular night the night which the Lord had mentioned yes yes we will enjoy future night so that night was going to be this night tonight. He is Bhagavan, He is atmaram but still He has this desire He wants to enjoy the company or He has promised. Sukhdev Goswami goes on explained or described that night moon bright moon has risen “tadodurajah kakubhah karair mukham” (S.B 10.29.2) Sukhdev Goswami is a great poet poetic way he is describing that moon is rising in the east and the moons rays- karair, moon rays are described as if those are hand of the moon and that moon with his ray like arms is holding a brush in his hands and he painting that horizon with pinkish color or he is sprinkling some kind of powder or painting that horizon and he is also comparing this horizon “priyah priyaya iva dirgha darsanah”. As if horizon is a lady who was waiting for her husband to return, husband was for long time and finally he is back and as he comes there is a meeting between wife and husband they are looking at each other, some time the husband may remove the veil like that and see her beautiful face.
So like that those kind of dealings are taking place between the moon and the horizon, little romantic description these kind of scenes are favorable for pastimes like this, dealing like this. And next thing Lord is doing now Lord this is the setting of the scene just few words have been said and then acharyas are talking more, filling in the details or elaborating the whole scene of rasa dance. As Lord only desired “ rantum manas cakre” immediately magical way Yogamaya arranged whole scene not only the moon was there the flowers were blooming, the cool breeze was blowing, the peacocks were dancing and the whole thing was happening in the banks of Jamuna which was flowing nearby. Lot more could be said it’s not a ordinary thing, yogamaya made arrangements for the Lord, the topmost, most wonderful, most confidential, most pleasing pastime the Yogamaya is going to move out of her way. So Vrindadevi the whole team that does the preparation sets the scene before Radha Shyamsundar and billons of gopis “laxmi sahastra satasambrahma sevyamanam” before they come whole setting of the scene is there.
So kind of scene is ready the next thing Lord is doing is “jagau kalam vama-drsam manoharam” (S.B 10.29.3) Lord played His flute with His pancham svara- high pitch and sound going al over Braja mandal travelling sound and when “nisamya gitam tad ananga-vardhanam” (S.B 10 .29.4) and that sounding flute playing of Lord Krishna has been heard “nisamya gitam” as gopis have heard those sounds and its mentioned here and Prabhupada also explains that the original kamadev – kandarba – the God of incharge of transcendental lust that is Krishna. So Krishna is playing His flute and immediately their desires have been aroused or with that they are reminded- yes yes don’t you remember I had said – one of those future nights we will be together and this sound of this flute has conveyed yes yes that night has come , that night is tonight gopis come. And they all rush and there is whole description what they were all doing, they were doing this “duhantyo” – milking cows or they were cooking in the kitchen, they were putting garments they were bust this way that way. But as they heard the flute playing they immediately rushed and they are heading towards Krishna in the vamsi vata. And king Parikshit he says what? King Parikshit says this is like Prabhupada helping us to understand this pastime this relationship between Radha, Krishna and gopis, this is most difficult thing to realize, understand. Because one is the realm of prema but those who are under the attack of the lust they have hard time understanding Krishna’s pure transcendental loving affairs full of love full of prema.
King Parikshit says oh! Sage Sukhdev Goswami he had just started describing the scene this rasa dance and immediately hey! stop stop oh! Sage the gopis knew Krishna only as their lover not as the Supreme absolute truth so how could these girls their minds caught up with the waves of modes of material nature? free them self from the material attachment. Question has been posed and nice purport has been complied king Parikshit was sitting in the assembly of great sages and other important personalities listening to the words of Sukhdev Goswami. If he was Sukhdeb Goswami and king parikshit he would not have interrupted but seeing that who else is in the assembly he had to raise this question. According to Srila Visvanatha Cakravarti Thakur as Sukhdev Goswami began speaking of gopis conjugal love for Krishna, the king noticed the expressions on the some of the faces of the more materialistic person present there, he was looking side long glances hey! What are they thinking?. So Visvanatha Cakravarti Thakur is pointing out that king parikshit took note of the expressions on the persons sitting around him, some of the more material persons and realized the doubting lurk in their hearts. This was their doubt not king parikshit,s doubt he could smell. Face is the index of the mind seeing their faces he could read their minds oh! I know what is in your heart? What is doubt? What is your question?.
Therefore although the king thoroughly knew the purport of Sukhdev Goswami words he presented himself as experiencing personal doubt, so that he could eradicate the doubts of others this is why he asked this question which we just had heard. So even the team Sukhdev Goswami and king parikshit they are helping us to understand, they are giving us kind of glasses wear these glass first put on these glasses first before you look at the rasa dance or before you want to understand this pastimes. And in response while Sukhdev Goswami is responding to this question and Prabhupada teaches us all the time these things. Sukhdev Goswami has quoted persons who constantly direct their lust, anger, fear, protective affection, feeling of impersonal oneness, or friendship towards Lord Hari are sure to become absorbed in thoughts of Him. There are many statements but this is one statement “kamam krodha bhayam sneham’ if you do that for Krishna or you target that towards Krishna then that impurity that bhava, fear they get eradicated or that lust even lust of course this has to understood that there is no tinge of lust in gopis or Radharani.
But admitting that there was some lust, the reply is but that they are directing that to Krishna so “nityam harau vidadhato yanti tan mayatam hi te” (S.B 10.29.15) tat- maya- they become full of Krishna, they become Krishna conscious as they direct their lust, that person is purified. And then gopis have come “svagatam vo maha bahagah” (S.B 10 .29.18) welcome welcome, whatever they were doing they left that in the middle they there with Krishna 1000s of them are arriving and so welcome is there. At the same time He is asking why have come oh! What brings you here Krishna is very tricky. Like you ring someone, you phone someone and as the person at the other end picks up the phone hey! What do you want? You are the one who telephoned the other gentlemen and he picks up the phone and hey! What do you want what’s the matter? Not that that person wanted something. So Krishna is the one who played the flute, gopis have come, gopis should ask oh! why did you call us what is the reason that you are calling us.
But contrary happening Krishna says why have you come? So not a straight path transcendental crooked ness we see in this pastime and then there are 5 chapters pastimes are there. (maharaj says) I just want to read the very last statement and we will conclude.
“vikriditam vraja-vadhubhir idam ca visnoh sraddhanvito nusrnuyad atha varnayed yah,
bhaktim param bhagavati pratilabhya kamam hrd-rogam asv apahinoty acirena dhirah” (S.B 10.29.39)
So vikriditam this pastime, this krida – rasa krida of visnoh Krishna with vraja-vadhu, the damsels of vraja, so this pastime of Radha Krishna and gopis. One who listens to this, at the end of the 5 chapters there is phalasruti – what is the benediction ? what is the benefit of hearing, reading, studying these pastime? Not that you are not allowed..no…no.. please study, please read this part but how to do that “sraddhanvito” –with faith in the speaker who is speaking and again what kind of speaker “anusrnuyat” not only srnuyat but anusrnuyat. You should listen these pastimes from someone who has listened like, You should listen these pastimes from someone who has also listened from someone and that person has also listened, meaning by adding this “anu” –srnuyat, parampara principle has been stressed otherwise its very dangerous very risky business, misunderstanding Krishna is guaranteed. If it is not heard properly from proper person a proper dose also, one tablet or as per prescription of the physician you take the dose, not the same amount of dose for every person at every different level that also is prescribed or accordingly the expert preachers will talk.
And not only one should hear but “ varnayed” one who describes these pastimes what is the benediction? “bhaktim param bhagavati pratilabhya kamam” such person will achieve bhakti unto Bhagavati the Supreme Personality of Godhead “param bhakti’ supreme devotional service and what would be the other side benfit? “kamam hrd-rogam asv apahinoty acirena dhirah” kama – the lust in the heart or hrd-roga, you heard one disease called heart disease, heart problem lot of people in the world has what problem? Heart disease but that not the kind of disease Sukhdev Goswami is talking about he is talking of the disease condition of the heart kama full of lust , heart full of lust he describes this as hrd-rogam. The person with hrd-rogam, the heart problem quickly he will become “aphinoty” he will be able to drive away that roga that kama from his heart. And that person will become sober-dhirah-peaceful in his mind by listening to these pastimes of radha and krishna. So tonight is very especial night, beautiful night Prabhupada decribes most beautiful night and tonight devotees also they keep sweet rice, so that when Krishna and radha whenever they want to its long night, sweating and sitting down to eat little snakes sweet rice and then what ever are the remnants the next day devotees take that sweet rice or even the moon rays they enter the sweet rice .
So it very especial sweet rice devotees get the next morning Krishna has very special night tonight, please take note of tonights moon very special moon and it is not a sun and moon moon according to our acaryas this is not the moon from the heavenly planets that participates in Krishna’s pastimes or plays his role in krishna’s rasa lila pastime, its another moon the transcendental moon specially appears to participate in krishna’s pastimes. So please read more read Prabhupada’s Krishna book and read these pastimes talk about these pastimes.

King  Uttanapada was patting the son of Suruci, Uttama, placing him on his lap. Dhruva Maharaja was also trying to get on the King’s lap. But the King did not very much welcome him. So here is the story…the history begins.

“Tatha cikirsamanam tam” (S.B  4.8.10) While the child, Dhruva Maharaj, was trying to get on the lap of his father, Suruci, his step-mother became very envious of the child and in great pride she began to speak so as to be heard by the King himself.

Purport: The King, off course, was equally affectionate toward both his sons, Uttama and Dhruva. So he had a natural inclination to carry Dhruva as well as Uttam on his lap. But because of his favoritism towards his queen Suruci, he could not welcome Dhruva Maharaja despite his feelings. King Uttanapada’s feeling was understood by Suruci and therefore with great pride she began to speak about the King’s affection for her. This is the nature of woman, nature of woman! If a woman understands that her husband regards her as a favorite and is especially affectionate to her, she takes undue advantage. These symptoms are visible even in such an elevated society as family of Svayambhuva Manu. Therefore it is concluded that the feminine nature of woman is present everywhere.

“Tatha cikirsamanam tam sapatnyas tanayam dhruvam  surucih srnvati rajnah sersyam ahatigarvita” (S.B  4.8.10)

While the child, Dhruva Maharaja, was trying to get on the lap of his father, Suruci his step-mother become very envious of the child. And with great pride she begins to speak so as to be heard by the King himself. First of all something about these two names of the two co-wives of the King Uttanapada one is called “Suruci” and the other one is known as “Suniti”.  I am sure you understand why these names! Ruci – affectionate one is also ruci, one of the developments on the ladder on the way to Krishna, what do you meet? You meet Ruci. This is more than a ruci, this is Suruchi.  There, there is a talk on how to develop in taste for Krishna. Just prior to the development of Bhava and Krishna Prem is Ruci stage. But here may be there a different kind of ruci, one is a spiritual ruci and other is a mundane, material ruchi. And the King had ruci he had suruci for the Suruci and that has made the difference. So that’s about Suruci.

Suniti–Niti refers to morality, principles of morality where there is Krishna and where there is Arjuna also, there you’ll find “Tatra shri vijayo bhutir dhruva nitir matir mama” (B.G 18.78). So one of these four items which exists where there is Krishna or Arjuna .One of those four items is Niti, principles or morality. So the other co-wife was Suniti.

Suniti well established in principles of morality. Later on we’ll find out that this lady, Suruci, she became envious sersyam with envy sersyam aha she spoke garvita full of envy and full of pride “sersyam ahatigarvita”. Two lower natures are in action here. It is the lower nature of a being, of a human being, be that a lady or a gentleman. This is a lower nature, being envious or being proud. And this Suruci, once upon a time “ekada” as it is mentioned in the previous verse, she was taken over by these two lower natures. sersyam means with envy and atigarvita full of pride  ati-means too much, extensive, extra-ati , garvita aha-she spoke and while speaking she wanted to make sure srnvati rajnah while she had King’s attention. She knew King is listening; hearing me. Or maybe she raised her voice so that she could get the attention of the King. surucih srnvati rajnah she wanted to make sure the King listens to what she had to say and this has all happened as the history goes as this is being narrated here.

“Tatha cikirsamanam tam sapatnyas tanayam dhruvam” As Dhruva Maharaj was attempting to get up on the lap of his father his sapatnyas Suruci she spoke something,  harsh words full of envy and full of pride. And because King is attached to this wife he is more attached to Suruci and when you are attached you become some kind of blind. Attachment makes you blind and you lose the power of discrimination. This happens many a times. Either you became mad aandhah, madaandhah, krodhaandhah, lobhaandhah, kamaandhah. All these enemies Kama, Krodha, Lobha, Mada, Moha, Matsarya they all could make one blind.

As those two sons of Kuber they also had become blind one time Madaandhah or dhan aandhah because of wealth. And they are at very elevated positions they become blind. They become intoxicated and they were not able to follow the right conduct in presence of Naradmuni. And the result was the curse. Off course, in that case, it was also the blessing. Blessing in disguise.  Dhrtarastra was attached to all his hundred sons and especially to Duryodhana and then to his brother yes Vidura Vidura (Here my computer runs sometimes slow).So he use to give good advice, Vidura use to give good advice to his brother Dhrtrastra. And he used to say some times; yes…yes brother what you say is right thing..! Yes…yes this is it..!What should be done, my son should do this or that? Towards or against the Pandavas? Yes… yes. Yes brother I agreed you fully. But when there is time for action, implementation of that advice, he would always most of the times he would fail, and this is because of again attachment…attachment to his sons and he would become totally blind although enlightened as he would hear Vidura . But because of his too much affection towards his son Druyodhana then he would become blind again. He was materially blind also he would become spiritually blind because of the attachment. Attachment is the bad thing off course. And this is this attachment that binds us binds the conditioned souls to this material world.

So here, King has affection towards both sons. He has feelings for Dhruva Maharaj and Uttam. But because of his attachment too much unnecessary attachment towards his one wife, Suruci, He could not express his natural, desirable feelings towards his son Dhruva. He had to conceal he had to just exhibit his feelings which would be matching the feelings of his wife Suruci.

He did not want to offend her because of his attachment to her. Although within heart, deep within him, he knew, this is not the right thing to do. These are my two children of equal age. They both have right to be ankam’  “putram ankam aropya lalayan uttamam” (S.B 4.8.9) So he was already patting his son Uttam who was sitting in the lap. The other one was also trying to climb up and also sit there so that he would also get a little pat on the back. So the father knew he should be patting both the children, one with the left hand and one with the right hand. But he could not do so because sersyam ahatigarvita. she said something out of envy and out of pride and she said so with a loud and clear message she was trying to give her husband, the King Uttanapada .And this has resulted in Dhruva Maharaj leaving home and off course there is no loss. The whole world is benefited, including us. To this day we are benefited. Thank you Suruci Maharani although she had been painted as a bad character, lower nature.

So did Indra people don’t like him because in Vrindavan he rained and everywhere there were floods and so much inconvenience. Why he had to do all this? But this was very much welcomed by the residents of Vrindavan. There was seven days association, Seven days to seven night’s association with Shri Krishna. So even apparently something not proper, sinful of normal results in some most desirable things or most beneficial outcome. Whatever! Still the point is there. The attachment is not good. Yes you all agree? Attachment is not good. The there are two forces Maya is pulling the soul in one direction and Krishna is pulling, also trying to pull, in another direction. These are the two…two kind of forces and the living entity in the middle, marginal energy, tathasta shakti. The material influence and the spirit, the supreme spirit, is trying to pull the living entity also the living entity sometimes this way…sometimes Krishna is also pulling…sometimes towards Maya. Three ropes are there, Satva guna-the mode of goodness. That’s the rope or Guna also meaning rope. Three ropes…three gunas. There is Rajo guna-the rope, there is Tamo guna-another rope. So this living entity is bound.

“Prakrteh kriyamanani gunaih karmani sarvasah” (B.G 3.27 )

All the activities which conditioned soul is performing, although he thinks “ahankara–vimudhatma karta ham” I am the doer “kartaham iti manyate” He only thinks like this but this is not the reality according to Lord Shri Krishna. The three modes of material nature are getting into work. They are making him to work. They are pulling his hand this way, they are pulling his mouth, tongue this way, that way pulling hands, legs this part, that part, here there and he has lost control. He is not in charge of his life. Someone else has taken the charge of his life. The Maya has taken, Maya in the form of these three modes of material nature is driving him mad and making him run around…round and round …and while all these happens he thinks “karta aham iti manyate” and this is because he is the vimudha aatma. What kind of atma? Not only Mudha which means fool but Vimudh which means especially foolish, first class fool as he is thinking I am the doer.

So of all different bonds which are working on this conditioned soul, this bond of affection between man and woman, this is the strongest. (Get Up!! Very important point is being mentioned here as you are bound by Yognidra, Nidradevi laughs). She is coming and she stitches our eyelids, not letting open, she is stitching, closing and things are moving slowly. This is also a bond, bond of ignorance. So this Bond of affection “hridaye granthi”  “Balam me  pasya mayayah stri–mayya jayino disam” (S.B 3.31.38)

stri–mayya in the form of woman just look at the power of my MAYA. Who said this?  Kapildev,  speaking to his mother his discourse on Bhakti yoga- devotional service. Look ….look! At The power of my Maya in the form of woman.  He had just now returned, returned from where? He had just returned after conquering the whole world or He has conquered many countries or he has become the emperor and he has come back to the palace, to the capital and then what happens? My brother just take a look take a look through the window now. Hide hide behind the curtain and just see look at this emperor now,  so what would the woman or the queen .Hari…!

“ya karoti padakrantam bhruvi – jrmbhena kevalam” (S.B 3.31.38) Hari…!

As now the woman is going to just  move little eyebrow and  just the movement of the eyebrow this emperor is going to be  falling at the feet !Not only falling but also he is going to be polishing the boot and then take off the boot and lick the feet of woman. You just take a close look at “Balam me  pasya mayayah” Balam me  pasya see the power of my Maya stri–mayya jayino disam in the form of woman and then the description.

What she could do and what happens to the big big emperors, powerful kings he falls at her feet and he does more things also unmentionable already what is mentioned was unmentionable but there is more which we cannot during early morning hours Brahma mahurta close we can’t talk, cannot give the whole graphic description.

The strongest attachment, the biggest stumbling block for the living entity to reach the lotus feet of Krishna is this amongst all other attachments “asa–pasa–satair baddhah” (B.G 16.12) pasa – the bonds of desires, aspirations of many kinds, satair hundreds and thousands of strings are attached to the conditioned soul and he is being grabbed and pulled and pushed, slapped, beaten up, this way and that way. So of all these bonds the bond of sex life, the attraction between the fair sexes, this is the strongest. So to become God conscious meaning breaking all these bonds. All these strings attached, So many strings are attached and we need to be aware. The part of self realization is as I sit or stand or exist I also know what are the different strings or ropes that are binding me? Which rope is stronger, which one is weaker and which one I’ve to cut? Or were should I begin? It is the part of realization to know how I am bound? What is binding? Who is binding me? This inquiry was made by Arjuna  “atha kena prayukto yam papam carati purusah anichann api varsneya balad iva niyojitah” (B.G 3.36)

This was realization and hence was also question of Arjuna. What is that? Who is it? athakena prayukto yam papam carati what is that compels me to commit sin? anichann I know this is not correct. This is not the right thing to do. I know this is sin. Despite of my knowledge this force is so strong that it just pushes me.  “Don’t push me around.” In the west it is out of pride “Don’t push me around” Who do you think you are? Don’t push me around. So these people are getting pushed around at every second.

“Vaco vegam manasah krodha-vegam, jivha– vegam udaropastha–vegam” (NECTOR OF INSTRUCTIONS VERSE 1) These are only six mentioned, do not think that there are only six vegam “aasha paashur shatehi badheyi…there are shatayi vegam also. There are not only six vegam pushing. Only because that word says six vegam pushing there are not six, there are hundreds of them and they are pushing you, pushing us around.  “Don’t push me around” But we’re being pushed around all the time. Now this is Arjuna’s point, what is that? Who is it that pushes me around? Compels me to do this or that! I know this is not a thing to do. And I response to this query made by Shri Arjuna, Lord Krishna’s famous reply is

“Kama esa krodha esa rajo guna samudbhavah” (B. G ) samudbhavah Something that is produced from the mode of passion,  two things have been mentioned, two big items have been mentioned one is kama esa…oh!  That is kama, oh! That is Krodha, oh! That is anger. And that’s lust that is pushing you, compelling you, and not giving you your choice. So if we are or anybody is for that matter  interested in liberation, God consciousness they  don’t so much talk on Krishna Prem, they talk of liberation,  talk of moksha, talk of heaven or going back to heaven.

“Pancham purusharthah”  prem pumartho mahan, this is too much of a high goal to  religious to achieve. They don’t even talk of that, Whenever this liberation is to be attained moksha, these bonds, these forces have to be rectify or nullify or they have to be cut them into pieces.  Before you could be liberated.  Liberated from What? Women’s liberation I use to have one husband, now I am liberated…how many I’ve now? So many, is that a liberated woman? I was kind of little bound because of having one husband and now I am more bound because I’m like a pig now. Anyone could just come…Welcome…you are welcome, I have no one  anyone can be making claims over me…Come on!

Women’s liberation…! A woman in Krishna consciousness could make that claim. I am liberated woman. Well…Krishna conscious lady is a liberated woman. To great extent liberated, yes liberated woman, Krishna conscious woman, Krishna conscious mother. So liberation the vairagya, the detachment from many things specially this man – woman affection, attachment, It’s very deep rooted into the Psychic, very subtle which is the product of Kama – the lust, number one enemy of the conditioned soul. So that’s one attachment caused by kama. Yet another positive attachment is caused by Prem – love for the Lord. These are the two things pulling us, pushing us.

Sometimes kama sometimes Prem, mostly kama if you are on the path back to Krishna aspiring on the way back to Krishna, strict follower of Sri Krishna Chaitanya Mahaprabhu then Prem factor is also influencing you. Otherwise mostly a dancing dog in the hands of woman. Although that person feels I’m free but he is just being dangled by a woman or Lord’s energy. No woman is to be blamed here. This is the world it’s not a talk against any woman, so this is the material nature. The naked face of the material nature, as it is. And then man becomes woman, today’s man becomes woman tomorrow, today’s woman becomes man tomorrow, like that taking turns.

So woman feels bad when they sit in through the lectures like this for 20 years and then they change the side and then they become man and they feel good. While the men, who were listening to all these talks, wear another uniform, sitting on another side and they begin feeling bad they were feeling good so far but then they begin feeling bad, so like this. But Krishna consciousness is above this business of being a man or a woman. It has nothing to do with Krishna consciousness. It is-“ dvandvair vimuktah”

When you transcend dvandva and the basic dvandva is this man and woman and then you add to that list, the day-night, black-white, rich-poor, on and on…..list goes, this world is full of dvandva the duality. The basic duality is this man-woman thing. But Krishna consciousness is above being a man or being a woman. It is on the platform of the spirit soul.

“urdhva-mulam adhah-sakham” (B.G 15.1)  15th chapter Lord Shri Krishna says that this material world is,  things are upside down. Its roots are upwards and branches are downwards in the material world, like a tree that you see within the water, the reflection. This tree is standing on the bank of a lake,  standing  erect  with the branches upwards  that’s the  original tree, then you see  in the water the reflection you see the upside down.  The branches are going downwards and its trunk is going upwards. So this material world is the shadow reflection of the spiritual reality. So the man-woman affection the kama we’ve talked about briefly, originally it exists in the spiritual sky in the form of affection or prem. Affection between Radha and Krishna and their loving conjugal dealings.

“Radha Krishna pranaya vikruti alhadini shakti rasma” Radha Krishna pranaya all the Radha Krishna leela keeli madhurya leela all the loving conjugal dealings are but the display of alhadini shakti, the pleasure potency of the Lord.  Lord is there, shaktimaan and shakti.  Shaktimaan is Krishna and shakti is Radha, “alhadini shakti” and all their dealings is madhurya rasa, conjugal this is original thing. And the shakti and the shaktimaan they cannot be separated. Chaitanya Charitamrita further describes in that particular verse that they are inseparable. Nothing mundane about Radharani, everything is pure, transcendental.  “ekatmanavapi” one time Radha and Krishna were one ekatmanavapi one time they were together. But then bhuvipuraah once upon a time deha gatau tau they became two ekatmanaa they are one ,once upon a time. Don’t ask which time, we can’t trace the history and say oh! such and such date such and such day but once upon a time long long ago these two personalities they became two  they were one ekatmanaav they became deha gatau tau they became two. They have two bodies one becomes Krishna, one becomes Radha and their dealings and then the verse states further.

“Shri chaitanya aakhyam adhuna prakatam cha aikam aaptam” That they had become two but again in the personality of Shri Krishna Chaitanya Mahaprabhu , as He appeared  500 years ago, those they were one, they had become two, they become one again “ aikam aptam” they became one.

“Radha bhava suvalitam nomi Krishna svarupam” and in this form Shri Krishna Chaitanya Mahaprabhu, He has accepted the mood of Radharani and complexion of Radharani too. Two aspects of Radharani are visible in the personality of Chaitanya Mahaprabhu, the mood of Radha and the complexion of Radha. To such Krishna swarupa, rupa – form I offer my most humble obeisance.

Now probably you are wondering what is this all been said here? Or maybe you are not wondering but not expecting this that all that is up there  in the spiritual sky appears here as upside down, in a shadow form, as we were talking about. But then Radha Krishna descending into this world, not only that Radha Krishna appearing in the form of Shri Krishna Chaitanya Mahaprabhu and as we, we’re engaged in the mission of Shri Krishna Chaitanya Mahaprabhu in a religion, Dharma delivered to us by of Shri Krishna Chaitanya Mahaprabhu. This is the most effective means or methods or process to get rid of all the lust. And unless and until you get rid of that lust don’t talk of religion, don’t talk of liberation.

Chaitanya Mahaprabhu’s process of God realization, Krishna realization is very very powerful. Most powerful, it is just a right medicine for the right kind of disease “bhavaroga” that living entities have developed. Towards the end of those five chapters describing the Rasa Dance. The benedictions comes also says that the “vikriditam vraja–vadhubhir” (S.B 10.33.39) Krishna is dancing with the Gopis that description “anusrnuyad” one who listens “varnayed ca” and one who describes “bhaktim param bhagvati prati labhya” that person will attain Supreme Bhakti unto to the Supreme Personality of Godhead. Those who listen to relish with proper understanding of course that’s why we said they were one they became two, they become one its all transcendental nothing mundane dealing here Radha Krishna all pure, gold, real, original, spiritual as one hears from the right source, hears with right kind of doses he hears, he will attain “param bhaktim” the topmost devotional attitude and “hrd rogam asv apahinoty acirena dhira”. “apahinoty acirena dhira” acirena means quickly “gets rid from the contamination in the form of kama the lust, bonds, attachments to woman, man” this business quickly quickly  one can cut all these bonds and become “dhira” what is dhira? Sober, what is sober? Who is sober? Not disturbed by the change, and when there are so many things being dangled round, so many forms all around, so many invitations, so many billboards, so much TV and this that. But person becomes dhira-sober, undisturbed.

“tatha dehantara-praptir dhiras tatra na muhyati” (B.G 2.13) not disturbed the big change is taking place what change? The body is being changed, body is being changed not just a cloth his body is being changed and he is not disturbed “dhira”. So that kind of sobriety or undisturbed state of mind could be achieved as one studies, listens, relishes, “shraddha shaddhayanvitah” with full faith in Lord’s pastimes. All pastimes are special cure or medicine for the worst disease ritrogam, kamarogam. A special dose prescribed by Sukadev Goswami, he is doctor, the best doctor. As per instruction of the physician you take dose, so Sukadev Goswami is prescribing you take this dose and see what happens. Lord Sri Krishna Caitanya Mahaprabhu appeared “samarpiutvm” in order to deliver “unnat ujwala rasam” this madhurya lila dimension. This is a contribution of Sri Krishna Caitanya Mahaprabhu “anarpita ciram” not delivered before, this is something new product, new thing not the same old wine in new bottle. It’s not a old wine no..No…its new one,  new wine, new product. The world has not seen it before imported all the way from “GOLOKA” and made available by Sri Krishna Caitanya Mahaprabhu and there is no religion. There is no process, not only as relishable as the Krishna consciousness but as powerful as Krishna consciousness.

Right now, right here on this planet there is no other religion which includes that’s why it says “harer nama harer nama harer nama eva kevalam kalau nasteva nasteva nasteva gatir anyatha” there is no other way. Chanting is part of this madhurya lila also because “hare Krishna” is what? Radha-krishna. And as acharyas gives interpretations to this Mahamantra, there is whole lila that goes on with that first “hare” is this and first “Krishna” is this and second “hare” like that “Krishna Krishna hare hare hare ram hare ram ram ram hare hare” each one astakaliya lila, everything is there. We mentioned the name is complete in the name there is a form. The name reveals form of Krishna unto you; the name reveals qualities of Krishna unto you. The name next reveals form and the qualities and the pastimes and abode and everything is “purnam”.

“sudha nitya mukta purnam” evertything “purna, sudha, mukta, nitya abinatva nama namino, nama cintamani caitanya rasa vigraha”

It is abode of all the rasas “caitanya rasa vigraha”. Including this madhurya rasa vigraha is this holy name. So Bhagvatam, yesterday we said Bhagvatam is the topmost scripture with that we established Krishna as the Supreme Personality of Godhead and everyone else where ever they stand sit in that whole chart hierarchy coming from Supreme Personality of Godhead, who is who? It becomes clear with the Bhagvatam. So Bhagvatam is delivered, Bhagvat is part of Krishna consciousness and the holy name is the big part of Krishna consciousness. And all this reveals the madhurya lila, so our acharya what are they doing?

“sri radhika  madhavayor apara-madhurya lila-guna-rupa-namnam prati –ksanasvadana-lolupasya vande guroh sr-caranaravindam”

At every time, all the time “prati –ksanasvadana” they are relishing what are they relishing? RADHA-MADHAV, their dealings, their pastimes.  Madhurya lila and other lilas also they are hearing and as a result   they develop “radha krishna –padarvinda–bhajanandena mattalikau”. This is not available, not known to so many religions that exist around, forget it. This is very special “radha krishna –padarvinda–bhajanandena mattalikau”. This is real pure thing very rare commodity, they haven’t even heard about it. So the “vairagya pradhan” Caitanya mahaprabhu’s cult, Prabhupada sometimes says cult. This movement is a predomination of the vairagya, there is a statement like that in Caitanya caritamrita. There is so much stress on this detachment, vairagya. “vairagya vidya nija bhakti yoga”. The Lord personally exhibits Bhakti yoga and the vairagya and the six Goswamis vairagya, detachment.

We are attached we have to detach our self this is not known. In Islam they have no idea of this detachment business you are considered civilized if you could be happy with 4 wives. As much sex as much you could enjoy you are considered a civilized person. And this is all the Islam is all about. Before that they were not even following any principles of anything and this Mohammad, he reformed he was a social reformer basically, he reformed the society some principles of morality. He himself had how many? Eleven or wives how many? (Maharaja addressing a devotee and laughing Guaranga knows how many).

So there is no renounce order in Islam, there is nothing like priesthood or sanyasa or renounce…no. there is not, there does not exist. At least in Christianity there are priests and monks and monasteries this doesn’t even exist. In Sikhism they have “grahasta ashram” first and last ashram, there is no bramhachari, no vanaprasta, no sanayasa, only grahasta ashram “grahast ashrameva kevalam” (maharaj laughs and audience also laughing). And Christians they go, the Christians go to the church; they pray I was told, to the priest to get a sex appetite. They are now becoming older, they are in 60s or 70 years old, they are becoming older. So they are losing the grip and not have same kind of fire like before. So they go and they pray this fire is getting extinguished there is a way to rekindle this fire at the age of 70, 80. By the old age there is an arrangement so that you would loose your grip and think of something else, higher things but they go on praying “please bind me more” they  want to be bound.

So what religion you are talking about? What liberation you are talking about? Just few sets of social reforms, few principles of morality “thou shall not kill”, “love thy neighbor” ok fine “love thy Lord”. But who understands this love thy Lord business. We welcome this “love thy Lord” statement but who understands this love. What this to do with the Krishna prem, Bhagvat prem that is described throughout Bhagvatam and Caitanya Caritamritam. So unless we hear about Radha Krishna, we hear about their dealings, we understand their dealings, their loving affairs, relish them not be envious of those dealings, not trying to compete with those dealings. Or they have dealings I could also have dealings parallel going on simultaneously. No! You have to stop it or just be happy with their dealings. Understand that they are pure spotless Amalpurana as it is. “dharma projit kaitavotra nirmatsaranam satam”. Everything lower nature things have been kicked out of Bhagvatam. So only Krishna consciousness that has been delivered “sankirtaneka pitro” Caitanya  Mahaprabhu is the father of his sankirtan movement of congregational chanting and congregationally hearing about Krishna Radha Krishna you will be able to give up this strong strong attachment to this world in so many forms including and especially attachment to this man and women opposite sex.

We see this  practically happening results are here for the world to take note of. How quickly the followers of Srila Prabhupada were able to kick out these lower natures from their lives and take to renounced order. There are some failures, fine but still only if they fail they did not fell so much deep into the well. They atleast become grahasta which is not bad. But in general there is so much detachment. It’s not possible unless there is some love, real love, spiritual prema in the heart to that degree one could kick out, break the bonds of lust unless you are equipped with the love. If you are not equipped with the love you cannot break the bonds of lust. You are powerless you are helpless otherwise. So that’s what Srila Prabhupad had to say that this movement he said I can’t quote but different times he would say how this is special hare Krishna movement. Very unique movement or organization, god’s movement.  Understanding this participate in this, protect this preserve and propagate this. Again same trouble comes with the Hinduism. We mentioned about Islam and Christianity and Sikhism. Hinduism that are lacking this Madhurya lila and even if they hear they began to imitate that Madhurya lila. They wanted to become gopi immediately they want to. Someone becomes Krishna and the whole thing is spoiled whole thing is Spoiled. Immediately they want to rush to the 5 chapters of the 10^th canto of Bhagvatam leaving aside all the cantos and chapters. Cheap sahajiyas as they become and everything is spoiled again.

This is a special benediction this Caitanya Mahaprabhu’s  Sankirtan movement. And then I quickly want to read through as it is seating in front of me the biography called sketch of Shri Sranag Murari Thakur. Shri Sarang Murari Thakur used to reside at Modadrumadvipa Mamgachi when we go on Navadvipa Mandal parikrama this village we visit where his deities of Sri Sri Radha Gopinath are still present. There is also a Bakul tree there which is perhaps existing since the time of Sranag Murari Thakur there is a local legend concerning this tree. One day when Mahaprabhu came there He noticed that the Bakul tree in courtyard of Sarang ‘s temple was dying. So He asked who asked?  Mahaprabhu this bakul tree is dying so what are you doing? What are going to do? Sarang Thakur replied besides your mercy prabhu I dn’t see any hope for this tree which had remained embraced that tree which had remained healthy to this day and now it is quiet large Haribol, that tree is still there in Mamgachi  Sarang Thakur had resolved that he would not accept any disciples but Mahaprabhu nevertheless repeatedly requested him to do so.

Finally he agreed by saying tomorrow morning the first person I see I will initiate him with divine mantra. The next day in the early morning he went to take his bath in Ganga. By chance a body came and touched his feet as he entered the water. Picking up this body he said who are you? Get up dead body. Body was dead he brought the body outside the water and the body was there and he said who are you? Get up from behind Mahaprabhu who was witnessing everything called out “Sarang say the mantra in his ear” Mahaprabhu gave a dictation to told him yes yes go ahead give him the mantra. Then when Sarang Thakur said the mantra into the ear of this dead child the body became conscious. He said my name is Murari I am your servant please bestow your mercy upon me.

One day when this boy was to be invested with sacred thread he was by chance bitten by a snake and died. As he was only a boy the custom was not to burn the body but rather to place it on the raft of banana tree and float it down the Ganga. When his parents received the news that their child is alive they came there to take him home, however Murari declined to accompany them to his former home, what happened? How did he to come to life? When his parents  asked Murari declined to accompany then to his former home, he told them I will remain in service of he who has given me life again. So I am in debt to him that’s Sarang Thakur.

Vrindavan das Thakur has described this Murari Caitanya das as follows- there was an eternal consciousness present in Caitanya das’s transcendental body. He would enter into forest just to chase tigers. Sometimes he would jump on the back of the tiger who by his influence remains insert. At other time he would put a python on his lap and play with great delight haribol. It was by the mercy of Avadhut  mahasaya Nityananda prabhu that he was to play in this way with tigers and snakes. Shri Nityananda Rai is very affectionate to his servants and thus by a simple wink of his eye they are able to enjoy mellows which are even not accessible to Lord Brahma. Caitanya was constantly in bliss forgetfulness of bliss of his self absorbed as he was speaking of some inner thoughts. Sometimes he would remain in the water for 2 or 3 days without suffering any bodily inconveniences. He appeared to be almost incessant. Therefore his activities were impercievable. Such was the fears intensity of his immeasurable prowess. How much can I describe of the interminable transformations of his devotional sentiments. This is from Caitanya Bhagvatam Antya lila (540.426-434) those verses. The descendents of his family are still residing at Saragram in Vardhaman district according to Guarganodesdepika Sarang thakur was previously Nandi mukhi in Braj lila. His appearance is on the 14^th day of the dark fortnight of the month of aashad. His disappearance is on 13^th day of the dark fortnight of the month Aagrahayo. This is today this is kartik marghashissh another name for that one. The temple of Sri Sarang Thakur and his virtual deities Sri Sri Radhagopinath are still being worshipped in Mamgachi, just north of present town of Navadvipa worship able deities of Vasudev datt Thakur that is Sri Sri Radha Madan Gopal

Are also residing there one can go there by rickshaw or tram from Navadvipa town.  By train one should go north towards Katwa and then get down at second stop Bhandartikuri and go there. So today is his disppearance day  Sri Saranga Thakur Murari Thakur tirobhava tithi mahotsava ki………….. jai

Nitai Guar Premanande Hari Haribol………………..

So we will stop for questions

Q1. Laxmi is whose expansion? And what’s the meaning of 4 symbols Lord Vishu has?

Answer:  Vishnu also has His consort, Krishna expands and he becomes Vishnu and Radha also expands and she stands next to Vishnu ,  Radha Krishna are one , then they become two and then they expand . They accept many many forms and one of those forms is principle forms is  Vishnu form which is residing in Vaikuntha and every incarnation of the Lord has Radharanis counterpart Radharani’s expansion. You may say male-female like that Purusha –Prakruti, Shakti-Shaktimaan, Energy –Energetic. So Vishnu is coming from Krishna and Sita is coming from Radharani and Laxmi is coming from Radharani . So like that Krishna comes in pairs, Radharani expands like Laxmi-Narsimha. You heard of Laxmi –Narsimha, Narsimha is coming from Krishna and Laxmi is coming from Radharani.

Ya, they are always pairs, but one has origin in Krishna, all the incarnation and their consorts or the feminine forms they are coming from Radharani- the pleasure potency. Like that these symbols have different meaning and significance two of them are for devotees, inspiring devotees. Counch shell and lotus this is for devotees and then club and disc is for demons. Krishna appears to protect the devotees and destroy the demons so that the e4 symbols are doing that function. Ok

Nitai Guar Premanande Hari Haribol………………..

They Say Sri-gopya ucuh “maivam vibho rhati bhavan gaditum nr-samsam” (10.29.31) don’t be cruel like this to us “santyajya sarva-visayamstava pada-mulam” we have given up everything, everything do you know what we had to go through to come to you? You were not there but we know what we have gone to reach your lotus feet, we have renounced everything just to reach pada-mulam, coming to your Lotus Feet. So our request is prasida be kind to us “vrjinardana-te nghri mulam” (10.29.38) O! Lord you are known as someone who vanquishes the distress and our goal is only upasanaasah to worship you. We have given up everything our home, our family, our only goal is to glorify you, to worship you, to serve you, to be with you.

“tvat-sundara smita-niriksana-tivra kama” (10.29.38) when we see your lotus face our desire to be with you even intensifies, O! Purasa-bhusana jewel among all men our only request is dehi dasyam we are only begging for the servitor ship your service. Sri Suka uvaca “iti viklavitam tasam srutva yogesvares varah” (10.29.42) after hearing these statement of Gopis they are many more, I have not shared with you. These expressions of despondency as Yogeshwar heard this finally there was prahasya sa-dayam little smile on His face and He was dayam sa-dayam prahasya sa-dayam, His smile was mixed with some kindness, they could read some kindness on His face.

“tabhih sametabhir udara-cestitah” (10.29.43) they could see now He has become more magnanimous, kind and magnanimous-open.  So Gopis who were standing at some distance as they were arriving, they had to hear this Krishna’s welcome address and which they thought that was not a very warm welcome here. So they were standing and as they were coming arriving, they were standing at a distance but as He melted smiling and some kindness immediately they all surrounded Him, gathered around Him and their faces immediately lit up like when sun rises sunflower open up right? There are hundreds and thousands same sunflowers open up and they all are looking at the sun. So like that when Krishna opened up showed some kindness immediately their faces were lit up.

“udara-hasa-dvija-kunda” (10.29.43) and as Lord also was smiling His lips were opening and His teeth were visible, the teeth also has been mentioned here as dvija, dvija means twice born. What happens with the teeth? They take birth two times so they are called dvija, the Brahmin is also dvija, so teeth is Sanskrit is like that instead of  saying teeth they say twice born whose going to understand which one is twice born is? So in this context, so as He is smiling they are even able to see His teeth and they are like jasmine buds and the Gopis are enjoying, Krishna’s  face is as it is beautiful and then He smile even teeth are visible, His beauty is further enhanced.

And then Sukadev Goswami describes  as Gopis were close and around Him so Krishna was like a moon and all the Gopis were like stars, stars twinkling  stars all around Him “upagiyamana udgayan vanita-sat-yuthapah malam bibhrad vaijayantim vyacaran mandayan vanam” (10.29.44). Now they are getting along well, and their vihar, they are walking and wondering kunja vihar, jamuna tira vanchari that begins. “nadyah pulinam avisya” (10.29.45) Jamuna they are not far from they are right on the bank of Jamuna valkham, there is nice fine sand and Lord is along with all those Gopis enjoying there are nice waves in the Jamuna and different flowers are blooming vayuna the air is blowing carrying that aroma and making whole area very fragrant hence very conducive for the pastimes.  So this, so some introductory relationship talking and singing and walking around this was happening everything was not in full blown action, long way to go before rasa dance and all that just opening a bud.

Then all ready Lord noticed “evam bhagavatah krsnal labdha- mana mahatmanah atmanam menire strinam maninyo hy adhikam bhuvi” (10.29.47) So Lord noticed that some of these Gopis are kind of developing pride, we are the only one, we are very special ladies we get to be with Krishna and I am closer and they are such great distance away from Him. So He was noticing that some pride was developing, thus gopis were again more mercy and lots of mercy and they couldn’t digest it, it was going to their head and pride was developing and with that becomes the end of that show Krishna disappears.“tatrai rantar’dhiyata” (10.29.48) Lord and it would be reveled unto us little later but we could mention that He has gone with Radharani, He has taken Radharani with Him, leaving all the Gopis behind.

And now the next chapter dealing with The Gopis looking for Krishna, trying to find their Krishna, so they begin, so they are wondering throughout the forest from one forest to another forest, to another to another and on that way they are making inquires, they are asking anyone and everyone, they have gone mad, they are even asking the trees, isn’t that sign of madness?. They are making inquiries from the trees, bushes, the birds, animals anyone, everyone, have you seen, ahe……….please ahe……….could someone tell us where our Govinda has gone? Where is our Shyamsundar? Ashoka tree and this tree and that tree, champaka tree and they are asking all different kind of trees. First these are smaller size of trees, first they asking smaller size trees first and then they ask the taller trees also, they think these trees are not tall enough but those who are tall they must for sure right now they must be seeing  where ever Krishna is?

So they asking the tall one tall trees another address is there and in between they asking Tulsi trees “kaccit tulsi kalyani govinda-carana –priye” (10.30.7) Oh! Tulsi have you seen our Krishna? Who always when He has His garland so many bees also fresh garland, fragrant flowers where ever He goes the garland is surrounded by the bees that kind of Govinda have you seen? What about O malike, O malati, O jati, O yuthika, the different kind of varieties of trees, bushes which are only found more in Vrindavan “pritim vo janam yatah kara-sparsena madhavah” (10.30.8) You look little jubilant is that because while Madhav was going this way, He touched you kara sparsena because of  madhav sparsha– touch is that the reason you look very very happy?.

So no response from any trees, then they are  are asking the earth, earthly planets, bhoomi mother bhoomi seems to be very ecstatic, Gopis are thinking all these trees and bushes are like a hair standing on the body of mother earth, mother earth has these trees are bushes are standing erect that means ecstasy. This is symptom of her ecstatic feelings so they say so your ecstasy, oh! Mother earth is that because Krishna has just now gone this way and He has touched you with His lotus feet is that the reasons of your ecstasy? Or is it because once upon time that Vamandev put His feet on you and then another one Trivrama He had become from that time to this day you are still maintaining  this ecstasy or “varaha-vapusah parirambhanena” (10.30.10) that Lord Varaha had  also  lifted you embraced you or you are feeling ecstatic because of that embrace of that Varaha dev. What is? Which is? It is now or is it from the past, that this ecstasy that is manifesting in you.

So bhoomi also has kept quiet, no response, so they are walking, moving forward making further inquires, they see she deer along with her family was there and they felt look this she deer is with the he deer but us we are not with our Lord.  Just by seeing them together, couple together, they are feeling just see when would that time come for us that we also could be together like this couple look he and she they are together but we are alone, we are left alone. So they are inquiring also from the deer, O! deer come near, come here, O! deer, O! my deer, but you know the deers are usually scared of people. Deers starts going away, he and she deer but what was happing was that as deers they were going but they are looking from time to time behind and then going, looking behind and going. So gopis were thinking this is what acharyas,  previous acharyas give a little commentary and they say that gopis were thinking that O, this deer they know where our Krishna is, so whenever they are looking they are saying ahe……come over they are running yes come come. So they are kind of yes you just follow us we will take you to your Krishna so they are following right behind. But then after while they couldn’t see he and she deer they both hid somewhere and then gopis think look…. look… look ….there must be Krishna near here, that’s why know this deer they did not want Krishna to know that they were helping us to take us to Him so they served us helped us but now they have gone away, Krishna must be around here.  So this kind of thoughts are being so much Krishna conscious everything leads them to the Krishna, thinking of Krishna like this.

So their search continues and but that gets them no were “ity unmatta-vaco gopyaha”(10.30.14) they are just intoxicated more they search for Him,  more they make inquiries they become more more the separation feelings, they get intensified and they get more mad and “krsnanvesana-katarah” distort they are in total intense separation and the distress that comes with that, that is what they are going through.  So for a while they kind of decide not to search and they are just remembering different pastimes of Krishna but now they are not only seating and talking but they start enacting different pastimes of Krishna.

“kasyacit putanayantyah krsnayanty apibat stanam”(10.30.15) one Gopi became Putna another one in her lap sucking the breast so this Putna, killing Putna and then Krishna sucking the life and the milk. “tokayitva rudaty anya” one gopi became lying down another one becomes  some kind of cart Sakatasura and Krishna crying and kicks that’s Sakatasura  pastime.  So like that two gopis become Krishna and Balarama, one becomes Vastasura and Krishna goes and catches hold of demon and through in to the “ma bhaista vata-varsabhyam” (10.30.15) Don’t fear don’t be afraid, Krishna says one gopis saying this playing role of Govardhan- Giriraj ok,I have lifted Govardhan, please come ,please come and then all the gopis are coming under the shelter of Govardhan.

So all these pastimes which they had been hearing and they were witnessing they are enacting and they  are trying to get near that way to Krishna and again they continue some more search “vrndavan-lats tarun” (10.30.24) so as they go forward searching they saw there was ray of hope there aha………..,look look ahe……..come come everybody come one gopi must have seen, she had seen footprints  as she sat down closely noticed, O there is a flag and the lotus also, oh!  all the signs are there eleven in one feet and eight in another one grand total nineteen  these are  Krishna’s lotus feet, Krishna must have walked  on this from here. So all gopis they came there and confirmed these are lotus  foot prints of Krishna so now let’s just follow, the path so they all now going walking next to the footprints of Krishna, He has gone this way on this way gone that way and “vadhvah padaih su-prktyani vilokyartah samabhrvan” (10.30.26) but they noticed that there are footprints of not one person but two persons are  walking next to each other not at ten feet distance hardly any distance as if two are walking just to next each other and then one gopi “kasyah padani caitani” (10.30.27) whose feets are these? these are Krishna that we understand but these other feet oh, you foolish sakhi, don’t you  understand and now you say this next verse Sukdev Goswami as he is first one to narrate this pastime is mentioning name of Radharani. This is chapter 30^th text number 28 “anayaradhito nunam” finish this is only mention of Radharani don’t you understand these are lotus feet of that Gopi who always worships “aradhito bhagvan harir isvarah” who is always worshiping the Lord that gopis lotus feet these are don’t you understand “yan no vihaya govindah prito yam anayad”(10.30.28) so He left us behind, He took that gopi, who does lots of aaradhna of govinda, these are Her feet and the gopis are for moment by seeing that they all have seen lotus feet So He left us behind took “dhanya aho ami alyo govindanghry-abja-renavah” (10.30.29) oh! how these lotus feet of the Lord are so special, they say that even the dust dust of these lotus feet personalities like Brhama “Brahmesau ramadevi” Bhrama, Shiva, Rama that’s Laxmi “dadhur murdhny agha-nuttaye” (10.30.29) they keep that on their smear that dust on their head on their body so that they would become free from agha any sin that they have committed to become free sinless, they take dust from these Govinda’s lotus feet and like that the search is continuing.

And then they go forward and then notice some more things look look here, this is the place another thing that they notice is ahe…. look here there is no feet of that gopi, only Krishna’s feet but here his feet have gone deeper into the dust sunken into the soft dust more than the what we had seen before what could be the reason?  And then don’t you understand this is where that Kami (Maharaja laughs) that lusty Lord must have picked  up gopi on His shoulders and because of heavy weight of the two persons His feet have made deeper impression in the Braj raj here so they go some distances and then they notice.

Oh! look here we see only the front portion of the feet and also gone deeper O, this is were He must have jumped up and down to pick up flowers for that gopi and look look…. here is some seat that both of them sit down here.  Of course after picking up the flowers He must have made Her  sit down done some hair decoration and but then again no feet of any feet of now only one person. So Radharani we are mentioning Sukdev Goswami doesn’t say that She become proud and “kesavam abravit” (10.30.37) and then she say to Keshav Krishna Govinda “na paraye ham calitum”(10.30.37) O! I cannot you know I cannot walk anymore, if you wish you could carry me on your shoulders again and then Krishna sitting sits down and He says ok jump climb up and as She about to climb up, Shoo………. He disappeared. Seeing how proud this women Radharani was becoming. So soon the gopis they go forward and they go forward they only found  Radharani there only crying and praying and begging for Lord’s association.

“ha natha ramana prestha kvasi kvasi maha- bhuja dasyas te krpanayame sakhe darsaya sannidhim” (10.30.39) O! sakhe O! Friend please sannidhim were ever you are please bring me there or please come here where I am now stations. O! Nath my master O! My dear kvaci kvaci where are you? Where are you? O! maha -bhuja O! strong arm one dasyas-te I am just yours dasi poor  krpanayame I am just poor and give me darshan give me your darshan, give me your association.  So this is Radharani crying and praying, so Gopis found her Radharani in that state and after upon meeting Radharani told everything the great time that She had with the Krishna. “mana-praptim ca madhavat” (10.30.41) I was honored He honored me so much enjoyed His company so much but dauratmyad because of my misbehavior She was confessing now avamanam I was dishonored, I was rejected, I am just dumped here, He disappeared it is not His fault it’s just me you know I misbehave with Him.  I should not have become proud so now there were Gopis and now Gopis and Radharani they searched and they don’t find, it is said that they went as far as they could. “candra jyotsna yavad vibhavyate” (10.30.42) the moon was shining and with the help of the moon shine they were searching but then came to that thick or thickest part of forest they were not able to see the moon shining was not effective enough it was peach dark, they couldn’t enter they couldn’t move forward so they simply returned and came to the banks of “punah pulinam agatya kalinday samaveta jaguh krsnam tad-agamana-kanksitah” (10.30.44) so they returned to the bank of Jamuna this is where they had originally started their journey from their search from ,so they all get together they begin talking about Krishna, singing Krishna’s glories  and hoping that He would return Krishna would return there very soon and that ends that chapter and the next chapter is  called Gopi Geet chapter 31,which we  will hear the Gopi geet.